Redemption and Rebirth

I'm gaining back control of my life and starting fresh.
These times were needed for me to grow and learn from mistakes and boy, was i "grounded to sit and think about what i have done".

14 hours.


hahah i will laugh about it when im old and wrinkled how i used to be young and dumb. just as i had tearfully-laughed about it with my mother inside an elevator the next day.
but i don't regret it...

i am not ashamed about it, no. its made me so much more appreciative of everything i have in my life and what i want to aspire to be. Still figuring out what my end product will be but WHO THE F KNOWS THAT these days?

Everyones out there trying to find their purpose in life,
when all you have to do is find the bigger purpose in the
HERE AND NOW
and your 'purpose' will come to u.
_So just keep truckin' and do the things that make your life enJOYable.
_whatever we do with our lives, we should be asking ourselves if theres joy in it. if there isn't then you should be asking yourself how you can put some funk in it?

its funny how i blog on this lonely blog anytime im hitting a shitty stop in my life. somehow, i can always rely on you stupid blogger. BUT this time, its not about my confused state of mind or my lack of intuitive power to see black or white,
...because i can see a lot more clearly now (at least since my last post). Im finally giving back to myself - time, energy n thought. Something i've failed to do for so longg.
I NEEDED this & i need to dream big, take risks and keep focused..
I need to be comfortable, being uncomfortable.
i need to be patient & work hard,
to make my comeback.

Im gonna give this job EVERYTHING i can to squeeze as much out of it that i can gain...
im not a quitter, but that should never stop me from getting what i want.
As the words of Kelly, creator of 'Shoes' , "IM GONNA GET WHAT I WANT!"
_______with_confidence*



this is the time for a new era for moi
2010 will be a great year. . . icanfeelit


*j