im not much of a writer, i actually struggle writing anything. but i think this may help me through this year... im going to need it. eff using xanga, i need a fresh start... haha but in all honesty, ive never felt so ...not young =( ~if that makes any sense~ i feel like time went by so fast and ive always had things to look up to and now i feel like i'm looking down. maybe its pms, but ive been an emotional wreck. a complete roller coaster of extremes that i swear, i feel borderline bipolar. its all change. its hard to let go of what your used to and adjust your whole life to something new and different...its a growing process i guess. Everyone seems like their moving on so easily but i cant help but hold onto things. i like to keep old clothes, notes, stuff,.. its just how i am.

i feel like this happens every welcome week, but i get super emo for some reason...i remember the first welcome week i experienced i definitely had some fun but what i look back on the most is how i felt so down that it was ending and things were fizzing out. seeing all of our alumni and current dc members at the CADC party was a crazy feeling. flashbacks of all the memories that these people gave me, the stories they told, lessons they taught/learned, & DClove. what i take good pride in. theres nothing else that is this certain in my life than dc. this is going to be MY year. my team, my last. make it count, & just go. be with them.